Sadly, bullying in the workplace is more common than you think. I hope that what I’m about to say will help someone out there who’s too afraid to speak up; to recognise what they are experiencing and remembering that it’s okay to speak to someone about it.
There comes a point where being challenged becomes something else. It tests your mental health and brings out a worry in you that you’ve never had before. You keep telling yourself it’s because you’re still new, and it will get better.
Maybe one day, the atmosphere in 1-1s and in the office will be the same.
You’ve got to remember that just because they’ve shown a nice gesture, doesn’t mean to say that they aren’t capable of bullying someone. Bullying isn’t just actions, it also words.
Being bullied before, you would think I would see the signs. I just thought that this is what real life was like. You know, starting something new, settling in to a new environment, you’re bound to feel nervous. But nerves turn into fear.
Just like I said in that previous post, I wanted to succeed and feel accomplished. But should you be put down each time you try? No you definitely shouldn’t.
For 6 months I tried and tried, to only get knocked back down again. There was some smiles on some days, but a very small amount. The last two months turned into silence where I felt drained and exhausted from feeling like I couldn’t do things right or I was constantly being patronised.
Don’t let bullying weaken you
Such a deceitful two-faced environment. I didn’t want to become one of them. I didn’t want to be branded as part of that ‘team’. Because in actual fact it wasn’t a team. Not a full one anyway. It felt more like we were the troops, or even better, the slaves.
The amount of times I heard, “Oh Natasha will do that.” too many times without knowing how, what, why, when, where… enough was enough.
My blood pressure was sky-high, and my team leader was made fully aware.