As I sit down to write this, I know it is the right thing to do! This past month I have kept trying to sit down and write, but nothing comes I don’t get that feeling of like this really resonates with me right now! But sitting down to write this, it is exactly where I am at in life. I am choosing me!!!
This has been a lesson that I’ve only just fully felt. It has been a weird few weeks, a lot has been happening. Amazing things and some important lessons for me to take forward with me. It isn’t sad though it’s a good feeling! I finally feel at peace with me.
When I was younger I always saw older women around me being strong and I always looked up to how they behaved. I was always the quiet shy girl, who didn’t know herself. So these women around me with confidence was like wow, how do they do that?
The other day as I was getting ready I just had some feeling like, I know who I am now and I feel content at peace with who I am. It is a gentle reminder that I really do love me now. I feel confident in who I am and what I want and how I want people to treat me. It hasn’t been easy getting to where I am now. It has been a lot of sad times and reflection, just trying to find my voice above everyone else’s. The world can be so loud and pressuring, that you just sort of get caught up in it all.
I always know when I am going through some sort of growth, because I can never write a blog post! At the time it frustrates me so bad!!! Because I know I love to write. But I just have to remember, at the right time my creativity will come back and I will easily write a blog post.
So yeah I am in a transformational period right now. It has been very strange these last few weeks, but slowly I am starting to feel like I know where I am going and what I want. Some decisions aren’t easy at all! But you always have to do what is best for you! It isn’t selfish it is necessary.
You can’t give, if someone just wants to take! That isn’t how it should be…. I am most important and I would never allow someone to bring me into their uncertainty ever again! I have been there and done that! Don’t ever lose yourself, trying to hold onto something that really isn’t worth it. Your mental health is most important.
‘ You can’t pour from an empty cup ‘
I feel excited to start blogging again, I have so many amazing blog post ideas! December is my favourite time of the year so look out for some good blog posts (if I do say so myself)
Me and my friend Chenelle also started a Youtube channel together and we should be filming another video for that this week. So look out for that to! There should be a link on the right to our channel. It is a funny one, but we are planning on doing some deep chat videos. So yeah what I have learnt this month is to always put my happiness first.
I hope you’re all having an amazing December so far! Don’t forget to come back because I will have a lot more posts this month.
Love Kirsty x
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